Wednesday, November 30, 2011

今天的梦

第一次,我爸,婆婆,叔叔,他们一起出现在我的梦里。
今天午睡的梦,
我想牢牢地记着它,记着他们!

我先看见我叔叔,他的样子还是像往常一样,坐着我公公家的沙发,傻呼呼的!
接着是我婆婆,我记得,当我叫我婆婆的时候,她给了我一个很灿烂的笑容!
接着我看见我爸,奇怪的是,在我梦里,站在那的人明明是我大哥,但我的潜意识告诉我他是我爸!我哥的样子怎么会变成我爸的模样呢?梦嘛~没得解!
令我无法忘掉的是,当我叫我公公的时候,他说“嗯,你爸爸做工回来了咩?”
顿时的我,你知道吗?简直是傻眼!
我告诉我公公“我也希望我爸能够回来!”
我的泪就在我答复我公公的时候,掉了!谈起我爸,我实在没办法不掉泪!
我醒了,我在我的闹钟响之前我醒了!才发觉,我的眼泪并不是只在梦里。

我重看我二哥前几天在面子书发的留言,我的泪更是无法控制!
他所说的每一个字,形容的每一个情景,都一一出现在我的脑海里!这一切都很真实!
我爸不在,我们的生活真的改变了很多!
看着我妈被欺负,真的很想帮她出口气,让他们看清什么才是真相!什么才是同情心!
人长得越大,看到的人事物,不再是表面上的了解。
大人们的世界,不好玩!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

November

Great,seems like I'm quit from blogging. LOL *sorry for being that long didn't update my blog*

Well,November make me stress that it keeps remind me, "my FINAL is just so soon!"
Having lots of mid-term tests and yea this coming thursday and friday i gonna sit for the FM & MA test. LOL. Both are the tough subjects in this semester for me,seriously!and the FAF as well.
Frankly,my classmates are kinda hardworking! especially my gang! Somehow I feel so down when I knew they are doing revision meanwhile I'm wasting my time by doing something not on my studies thingy! Yeah,I am such a failure,right?

Last night went to Genting with my lovely friends and my love one! Guess what, I went into the Genting Casino when I'm actually still underage! BTW,it was not the first time I go into casino!LOL. Am I look old? haha,guess I'm lucky instead!
People told me that you won't lose if you are the very first time trying this game!haha. It's true!
Just due to human being is greedy,so at the end-DRAW- better than lose right?><''

Wish me LUCK for the test on Tomorrow:)

Thursday, October 6, 2011

6 OCT 2011


This brand new life seriously I don't like it!
I wonder is it I'm a Virgo so that I wish to see everything is perfect?
I feel weird when I back home but don't see my dad is around.
I hate but when I look at my mum, I know I shouldn't think like that cause my mum need us!

Something I realize that my brother's attitude seems like changed!
He stay at home more often compare to the previous him!
Last time my dad always nagging why his son like to had his dinner at outside but not dinner with him!why his son always overnight at others house but not at home!
I wonder why my brother can't change it when my dad is still here and how much he wish his son can dinner with him together!

Maybe this is so called human being.
In time of test, Family are the best!
We don't choose family. They are God's gift to us,as we are to them!:)

Saturday, September 10, 2011

怀念。爸

奇迹,
我不等了,不再期待了,放弃了。

此时此刻,
我只希望爸能好好的渡过剩下的日子,
没有疼痛,没有痛苦!

今天的他,让我们都哭红了双眼!
他的状况似乎变本加厉!
他的痛,我们无法理解!
他的有心无力,让我们都感到很心疼!
今天的他,十问九不答,没有魄力说话!
双脚无力,使他上厕所都困难!

今天的他,眼睛变得无神,就连打开双眼都懒的理我们了!

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以上的,已经成了过去。
我无法把那篇部落格完成,是因为我大嫂接到我哥的来电,说我爸快不行了。
正要出门赶去医院,我收到我哥的信息,
“faster come, dad is looking for you."
顿时的心情,我真的很害怕!很心寒!
在车途中,我的泪不停地掉不停地嚷着,爸,等我!一定要等我!

我们兄弟姐妹都在我爸的身边,
告诉他,
我们都长大了,不用再担心我们,
我们会照顾好妈,您安心吧。

回家途中,
我爸,就这样走了。
当时的情况,实在没办法用言语来形容!
哭得泣不成声,
尤其是我妈,她简直是崩溃!

昨晚我陪我妈一起睡,
睡着同一张床,
一起谈起我爸,
我和我妈都哭了!
我告诉我妈,
我还没毕业!我还没出来工作赚钱给他家用!
他曾说过要如何替我庆祝我的21岁大生日!
怎么他就这样走了。。

我最骄傲的是我的家人!
但现在不完整了!
我曾告诉过我姐妹,我最怕的是亲人离别!
但其实原来这一切不由得我们说不!

想开、看开,
或许这样对我爸是一种解脱!
我爸现在不再痛苦,不需再被护士弄疼我爸的手,没有针孔,爸不需再皱眉头了。
爸,一路好走!
您永远是我的骄傲!
我无法再这样握住我爸的手,
这双手已经没有温度了。
如果可以,我希望来世还能当您的女儿,让我再次牵起您的手!

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

random31

went to PD randomly and I like the feel when lying on the beach!
seeing the wide sky,too bad tonight don't have any little star!

The moment when I chit-chat with my friends,
talking non-sense rubbish,laughing,giggling,
my brain system like stop functioning,stuck for a while,
It's great!
cause recently too much of invisible pressure comes to me!

Take a deep breath!
Smile and the world is yours!=)

Saturday, August 27, 2011

疼!


刚替我爸搽润肤霜。
搽满他的双脚、他的双手,
他变得好瘦,
我知道,我也能看到!
只是,
当我正要替他的背后搽,
我妈说道,
“给你女儿看看你有多瘦了!”
“我的天啊!”
我才发现,我爸比我想象中还要瘦!
简直可以说是皮包骨!

我的泪,就在我帮我爸的背后搽润肤霜的时候,不停的在打滚!
我的心好酸哦!...怎么办?...

Thursday, August 25, 2011

家人.

有人说,
你会抱怨这个世界不公平,
那是因为你无能!
起初,我是认同并且说对!好一句无能!

人嘛,能吃多少能穿多少,是注定的!
与其想着那些有的没的,不如好好珍惜剩下的时间。
我很想抱怨,很想痛骂老天怎么能忍心夺走属于他的一切。。
好不容易,他闯过了人生的难关!
他做到了,他挨过了!
大家都仿佛放下了心中的障碍物,尤其是我妈。。
可是啊,
老天就是不肯放过他,非要他走上绝路不可!

看着他,一天比一天的瘦,
他的脸颊、他的皮肤、他的眼睛,
这是他吗?
每次看着他,我都觉得好心疼!
就连想大声狠骂我一顿的力气都没有!
他还好吗?

他辛辛苦苦建立的家,
孩子们都长大了,
不需再埋头苦干的工作努力赚钱,
可以安心地享福,
到外地走走,
带着孙子上学去,
与老朋友打交道。。
怎么这一切,却好像被安排了给他的下一世。。

世界是公平的吗?真的是公平吗?

说真的,
好佩服我妈哦!
她比我想象的勇敢坚强!
我们都觉得我妈很依赖他,
做任何事情、任何决定,
要去那儿都得与他相伴!
我们都说她很眼浅,
总是被一些不怎么感动的戏剧令她流泪!
当我的眼泪掉的时候,我妈她竟然没哭,口中还嚷着说,要想开些~
妈,你真的很棒!

考试完毕了,
最想去的地方,就是回我的家!
家人可是我的全部!
少了谁,都不算完整!

这世上没有公平。那,有奇迹吗?
爸,快点好起来,好么?

Sunday, August 14, 2011

A moment.

Time flies,
until I can't take a deep breath.

Everything happened was a good things,perhaps!
We cant back to the past but God give us a chance to change our future!
It sounds kinda fair,isn't it?

Sometimes I dont know why am I work so hard for?what is the exactly things that I longing for?
All in a sudden,I feel so down!
All in a sudden,I lost the self-confident to myself!
I just can't satisfy what is going on.
I need more and more people to encourage me,to motivate me,to enlighten me and so damn on!
I'm just simply cant get enough!

Friday, August 12, 2011

命运。

感动到我流泪的戏剧,
想必是关于亲情、小孩、狗狗之类的剧情。
而《犀利人妻》是第一部让我流泪的爱情戏剧!

我并没因为这部戏,把我的爱情世界变得额外消极,
因为我知道,不是每一个人都像他一样贱或像她那样自以为是,
又或许,我本人超相信命天注定这把戏,
无论你如何努力捍卫你的另一半,一旦他变心 ,你可别指望他回头!
就像那女主角那样,安分守己,家里打理得多么井井有条,饭菜烧得再怎么好吃,
还不是一样也为爱情烦恼,还不是一样到处求神拜佛希望她老公没有外遇。

度量要放大些,心胸要放宽些,这样才能装得下幸福!
好棒的一句话!
因为要原谅他人的错误,可并不容易!
你要我不报复、你要我不计较你的过失,我都能做到,
但要我的原谅,说真的,有点难。

小三可以考验一段爱情,
只要闯过了这关,爱情就能继续长跑。
我无法理直气壮地说,我痛恨小三!
每当我想说那句话,我更痛恨自己!
有些事情是无法改变,
有些污点是无法抹掉。

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Blog.

Accidentally saw a friend's blog.
not really a close friend.
and he did don't look like a person who have a blog habit!==
However, it's quite amazed me after I read thru his blog!xD

Last few month I did told myself I have to throw my diary books since they are make me feel so insecure!
but I'm wondering why I haven't take action?@@
Sometimes, we might change our mindset as the times goes on, I developed an interest in express my everything to my diary since I was young, still studying primary school if I didn't mistaken!
I like to express my emotion by writing instead of telling and share to my friend><
It's such a good thing right?
Honestly, I don't really need any advises from them but I do need a pair of ears need a listener instead!
Just I have no idea how am I suppose to start the first word and somehow it's not a good timing to interrupt the atmosphere that what's suppose to be goes on.
That's why most of the time I choose to discard them and prevent not to kill the mood!=)
I doesn't meant that It's a great move but then that is unnecessary to do so.

Stop nagging to myself and I will throw it on tomorrow no matter how much I am not willing to!=)

Korea BBQ day.

Today went to Kuchai lama had Korea BBQ as my dinner with my lovely bro,sister in law,and her sis.
Frankly,I'm so in love with Korea food.
It taste so delicious!
Suppose is like about 100++ but with coupon so we just paid only 60++
my bro found out the coupon at www.everyone.com.my
There are provide many food discount coupons with a promotion price!
If u interested,can kindly have a look!=)

Kuchai lama really have effin much restaurants especially dessert station!LOL~
We stopover in front of SnowFlake shop when we saw that don't have a long queue inside.
And so we went in!...xD






Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Outing Day ♥

26.07.2011
We went to 1u.

By right was I needa went there to casting for shu uemura roadshow.
but end up they telling me it's already enough people.
My feel was like What The Hell is this!
I purposely borrow my friend's car went to there but end up get nothing!
Lol~....they thought I am very free!==

Luckily I was planning shopping session after the interview!
So, a casting day turn to a Shopping day with my dear-Mc=)

We have fun~We have joy~......
We had tried the tutti frutti finally...It's quite expensive yet delicious!
and it's quite fun that you can add on those choc chips, cornflakes,fresh fruit and so on as a decoration on the top of the Ice-cream!^^
By the way,all is about the money!...because they are using a weighing machine to calculate how many gram your ice-cream is!><

Awwww~
Finally i get myself a wallet...after I reached home only I noticed that it's quite a big sized..haha..xD
No worries,I like it still~


BBQ plaza~~~Yummy^^







Fashion Show!~xDD












Tutti Frutti~~^^


Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Jason Walker - Down



This song is damn emo yet it's so meaningful.
I like the rhythm that how it flow like especially the beginning of the song.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Don't go.












The happiness is like a shadow,
you can't chase after it,
but if u try to walk forward,
It's just following behind you.

I apologized that I shouldn't think that way so negative.
what you need exactly is our support.
you are the one who need to fight for.
you are the one who are just can't afford the cruel fact.
I'm sorry.

I'm so believing in miracle,
In fact, there are nothing else I can do for you.
I shouldn't lose confident toward you.
since I do really hope you can overcome it.
I'm just can't imagine that how is my life without you.

Don't leave us please,
I love you.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

双亲节

满有意义的一天!
这是一个公会,
~赖氏宗亲~

当天准备了很多食物,
都是由伟大的妈妈们亲自包办的,
而我妈报效了“客家酿豆腐”!

为了感恩天下所有的父母亲,
大家都哼起了-“我们的家园”
接着,听了某几个身为父母亲的感言。。
爸妈真伟大!

他们有个献花仪式,
很幸运的,我被他们“点中”!
让我把一束一束的鲜花献给在场所有的长辈,
还蛮有趣的!
一个多么有爱心的活动!
大家都好开心,我也很开心!